Wednesday, November 30, 2011

We Can Kick Ass!

Yes that is what it has been the last 2.5 years. I am so ready to stabilize it's unreal. Me, the girl who doesn't know how to sit still. The girl, who gets board easily? The one who is filtering all over anime, gaming and comic conventions geeking out like a little fairy. O yes... I am ready to embark on a new adventure. One of Dangerrrrrr, one of ragggggeeeee... one of mysteryyyy.... Ooooooooo.... yes. That is I. I am one to live on the edge: I liketo run yellow lights, Yes - I put large pans in dishwashers that are supposed to be washed. M
y edginess takes no bou
nds. I write horrid, evil, messages and then giggle and delete them before I send them. Only I will ever know what they say.

But really now. It has been a winding road. Last year this time. I had no clue what was up with me. Now I know - the Fibromyalgia, Thyroid and IBS are all being managed and under control. Woot Woot! Well, medicine sucks but Hell, I feel so much better seeing that last year I couldn't even move. My thyroid levels should have been between 3 and 5 and it was up to 60. My doctor was debating putting me in the hospital. Last year at thanksgiving a family member picked me up at my place and drove me to my sisters house and I stayed awake long enou

gh to eat and roll back into bed. Since then I have lost 30 plus pounds. I don't look like it but it's weird. I stopped eatting Glutten in February and that helps some. Massage is the freaking bomb. Yeah! Then there is my shimmy shimmy time when I belly dance for a nice workout.

Im trying to figure out a costume to make. One of my friends said since I like dice I s
hould make dots as if I were a 5. Ummm! LOL.

So yesterday, I got something I have wanted for a long time. Yep a toy accordian! Last night my son who is 14
and I sat down
and learned how to play it a bit. I think we got some of Joy to the world and I tried to do a Gogol Bordello song..... OPA! I so want to go to Russia! Man - or here if they were here and see one of their shows. OMG - yes I would geek out. Ok so I recently discovered them through an interesting movie called Wrist Cutters. I totally loved it. I mean seriously, Joy Division, sad 80's songs and Purgatory. Sweetness... now that's my kind of hell. An
yway, one of the songs got my attention. LOL - this is going to be great along with my Eukleighli( Ok - or however you spell it - you know, the small baby guitar looking thing?) I got a few months back. Hrmm - maybe I should get a base drum and cymbols between my knees like in Mary Poppins. I dunno - I just know these things make me laugh. And laughing is awesome!

Through it all I keep on going. Hellz Ya, I can kick some ass hrmm... scratch that. Yar tiz be kickin yarrrr boooty.... Aye - Pirate be the life for me. Actually - I always wanted to be in a Carnival. Or gypsy caravan. A few years back - I knew I was going to leave my X, I had a

silly dream about getting a little airstream to hook up to my car and just goooo to whatever art festival or renaissance festival was around. In the front could be my studio, then the kitchen and my bordello room in the back. Well, not used as a bordello - but I like the style. I could make my art all day and dance into the night around the fire.

Maybe one day, I mean WOW - Mini Cooper the Care of my DREAMS and the streamline / silver bullet combined? Double geek-asm here.

What is the point of this you might ask? I don't know - you can't ask what the meaning of life is too and get the same answer. So pick your battles. There... I said it. Yeah! O wait, that doesn't make since, sence or cents. Muahahahaha....

Anyway, cliff note version here. I am so much better than I was. Working on getting life on track. Ready for stability (yes I have 2 interviews this week - wish me luck! It's been since February that I was laid off, so steady work would be awesome). In the mean time, I can dream. I will make my dream board. Which will constantly change. Thank goodness for chalk boards. I mean - geezz.... I am a flaky person and ink does not erase, so this is perfect for me.

My love life? What's that... Focus is on me. Work, my kids, health and my art. Once I have enough art built up I will show again. Right now thinking of making Little Miss Gothic Muffet into a silk screen for shirts and other items and working on a plush. I guess I need to get a few more going.

Ok - kiddos - I can babble all night like a babblefish, but I am signing off.....

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Movie week…. I can’t believe I saw this many!

After 3 months of extensive planning for an arts festival, It was finally over and it was a success. The week after, my body collapsed into a, " what just happened" moment. It was time for me to take some time and recoup before going to a convention in San Antonio 4 days later. To do so, I had decided to see a few movies:

X Men, Green Lantern, Kung Fu Panda 2 and Cars 2 all in one week. How would I rate these?

Xmen, I liked. I thought it really brought characters together. Now how this relates to the comics, I don’t know. The comic I really read in Highschool and College was Death the Sand Man Series by Neil Gaiman. I love the old cartoons and such but never really read the comics.

Kung Fu Panda 2 was cute. I really like it and it made me a bit teary.

Cars 2 – Meh……

Green Hornet… Meh…

Will I buy any of these movies? I have no idea, but the magic 8 ball is hovering between ask me later to out right, no. They were fun and entertaining for the moment.

I finally saw the old 1994 movie, The Crow, a few weeks ago.Everyone I have told are amazed I never saw it. Meh, I had other things going on at the time like being pregnant, college and working full time alongest other things. But it was cool. I was amazed at the familiar looks of The Crow and the Heath Fletcher Joker characters. Then to find out they both were killed? Wow… is that true? I don’t know – I was too lazy to look it up.

This week has been busy but I always have time to veg and watch a movie at home. Really that is one of my favorite past times recently. I have borrowed the whole Star Wars set, Cowboy Beebop, 9 and Fight Club and I look forward to watching them again. Yep – instead of shopping at the store I have reverted to borrowing my friends movies and things – and I do the same for them.

As for books? I still haven’t really gotten my hands on any to borrow yet. If you’re willing to send me one, I will read it, but I am trying not to buy any for the time being. Maybe it’s time for a library card I say. But in the mean time, I am reading Hitchhikers road to the galaxy. Yes – I have never read it all the way through. Now that I have some time – I will go for it. Also I have the 2nd hard back of the graphic novel Fables to read. That will be fun also. Another short read I am borrowing from a friend is Bride of Tranqility. A friend of mine picked it up at a con. Said it was light hearted and funny. That is what I need. So we shall see.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Ode to Work

Ode to work
Sing to the tune of whistle while you work. F blunt please.......

Whistle while you work. ***whistle***Don't listen to that jerk. ****whistle*** Their power hungry, last minute hurry, they treat you like your diiiiiirttttt. Soooo.... Whistle while you work. ***whistle***Don't listen to that jerk. ****whistle*** Your absolutelyyyy confidentlyyyy, crucial to do their workkkk.... Sooooo, just..... Whistle while you curse.. ***whistle*** Don't forget to do your worst ***whistle***. Take a long lunch, leave a little early and forget about that jerk. Sooo just whistle while you driv***whistle*** It's time to leave that ***bleep bleep bleeping bleep*** dive!!!!! Time to have a stiff drink *** hiccup*** and pass out on your beeeedddd....... Zzzzzzzzzzz

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Alice Madness Returns and Need help.. Which version to buy?

**** girly excitement squeal. Eeeeeeeeeee*****
It's being released in June!

It's been 11 years since American McGee Alice was here. I sadly, didn't get to play until this year after I finally won a bid on ebay. For a game that was so old, it is still very popular. I had been looking at it the last few years and since the newer Alice in Wonderland was out, it was priced up in the $150's use. Luckily when I finally won the bid (I lost the bid to 5 other copies) , I got it for $30.

I have heard that both experienced gamers will not be disappointed and that people just getting into gaming will still be able to get through the game with it's puzzles and battles, but also the noobs.

The story? "American McGee’s Alice saw an accidental fire consume Alice’s home in Victorian London, along with her family. Wracked with survivor’s guilt, Alice attempted to commit suicide and was committed to the Rutledge Asylum. While institutionalized there, she revisited the Wonderland of her childhood, which had decayed under the iron fist of the Queen of Hearts. By destroying the Queen -- the physical manifestation of her own insanity -- Alice restored Wonderland to its original splendor and was declared stable enough to venture out into the real world." via Samit Sarkar

Check out this fantastic-o trailer!

Being a Alice nut,
I can't wait.
I love being able to slide into a persona of a suicidal Alice. But this time around Muahahahhaha.... Again 11 years later. I can not wait, to see how smooth the game play will be and graphics much more advanced (ok that's a duh, but the older version still isn't bad).

Which version to buy
PS3 or PC

I'm confused....... need help....

an Alice fan!

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Handy Blog: Batty Song

From time to time I get board and write on my hands and such and Make Hand puppets. Then I make them sing stupid songs. Here is one of my Bat songs to hopefully make you laugh.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Little Miss Gothic Muffet, repost a twist on mother goose

Illustrated for your viewing pleasure....

Little Miss Gothic Muffet
Sat on her pale white Muffet
Drinking her O positive blood.

Along came a spider and sat down beside her and she went
Mmmmm..... Dessert

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Mistress Scary a spin off of Mother Goose

My own rendition changing up Mistress Mary quiet contrary that is just a little more twisted.......

Mistress Scary quite contrary,
How does your cemetary grow?
With tomb stones statues and catalillies
And pretty corpses all in a row.

***Curtsied and walks off the stage***

Friday, February 25, 2011

Wonder Woman vs Cat Woman, the winner is......

Today i saw this on one of my normal sites I check for art inspiration.....

Sneak peek from Wonder Woman picture book coming this spring from Even the gods don’t stand a chance!?!?!?

Ofcourse, my mind didn't focus on the up and coming comic but more to the effect of... Wonder woman... blaaaaa........ Now I must admit, I didn't follow Wonder woman growing up. I didn't think her invisible jet was thought thru. I mean, you could still see her when she was in it. WHY have an invisible plane if you can still see the person inside. It's like giving Harry Potter a regular blanket and telling him it's an invisibility cloak. Then Harry would say, "I'm invisible. You can't see me... You can't see me." then Lord Voldermort would giggle and go ****poof*** gone went Potter.

As a kid, I thought hrmmm... that's really embarrassing if she has to put on auto pilot and have to go to the bathroom. Everyone would see it. Now, my all time favorite was ***cough*** ***meow*** you got it.... Cat Woman.... It only makes me wonder... If Cat women and Wonder Woman were to get into a fight... who would win? Thoughts? I personally think Cat woman would win and kick some serious Wonder Woman butt. Think about it, Cat Woman has death defying sex appeal not to mention an awesome dominatrix wip and a bitchy cat like attitude of, don't mess with me or Ill bite your head off.... I mean really? "Life's a bitch and so am I" Meowwww..... Then don't forget....

Selina Kyle: Mistletoe can be deadly if you eat it.
Bruce Wayne: But a kiss can be even deadlier... if you mean it.

Dun dun Dunnnn.......

So you tell me, in the battle of Cat and Wonder Woman... Who would you place your bets on and why? Im a fan, and always have been. She just looks and acts like she means business. She's dressed for fighting. Wonder woman on the other hand is set up for a wardrobe catastrophe. I could see her now. OMG, my top wont stay up. I don't think she has lazer beams underneath her top to fight crime. I'm just sayin.....

But who am I? I'm just a fan behind a mask....

I said No MORE WIRE HANGERS!!!!!!!!!
Yours Truely,
Mommy Dearst

Thursday, February 17, 2011

She's too pretty to die

I must say I am very giddy at the moment with some wonderful news... Firefly is going to be returning to cable. This article though made it sound like they were continuing the episodes. Firefly' returning to cable; Fillion says he'd play Mal again -- Damit! After I read the article I was still excited that they are reairing it. But, you don't tease about Firefly. So check your local channels for airing. Or go to netflix and rewatch. Why did I love firefly. Look, I grew up watching the old Star Trek, my favorite episode was trouble with tribbles. I even have the trading card of kirk up to his armpits with tribbles. I also watch Buck Rodgers and Battle Star Galactica. I love sci fi. and another more recent one (well not so recent) was Farscape. It's pretty bad when I get so involved with the characters I cry during certain episodes.

Now I honestly haven't watched but a few episodes of Battle Star Galactica yet (i know I know) but I only have so many hours in a day. I don't have cable so alot of what I watch is on netflix and they just seem so serious. I like the lackadaisical ones.. But I will give it a chance at some point. In the mean time, I catch myself watching things that make me laugh and cry. Or laugh so hard I cry. Like Dr. Horrible's sing along blog. If you haven't seen it, watch it and work on your evil laugh and you might see Fillion as Captain Hammer. Pffftt... If you like that and your into any sort of online gaming or not and just know people who are, Felica Day is on Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog also has her own as well... The Guild, which is another I watch and giggle at.

Ok - I have rambled on enough, don't even get me started on talking about the Zombie movie Fido. I leave that for another time. Yes - I think I geeked out enough here.


Nebulious, is what one of my friends said when they saw my digital painting. And so that is where the name came from. I created this in November after a long work trip in California. Overworked and over tired, but still couldn't sleep. I think I need to blow this up on canvas and put it in my living room. Yes, put on canvas I will... I noticed while creating this - it was really creating itself. There was no real beginning and there really was no end. But when I stop I was amazed to see a little hobbit type character in a cave with a lady holding a sphere. I guess I have read a little too much Terry Brooks books growing up and Tolken.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Lego Land? Omg! I can't wait!

Saw this at the local outlet mall. OMG! I can't wait! I'm so there! I love logos! Ha, and about to make some cuff links out of some and out of PC keyboard keys. Lol!

Monday, February 14, 2011


Yep, i was bored and couldn't sleep. So as any normal person I draw dragons on my knee. Lol. I need sleep! Come to me sandman and knock me out! :)

Friday, February 11, 2011


As we are about to embark on another overly marketed holiday, Valentines Day, I have to giggle. The immature side of me says to myself, "V- day, more like venereal disease day."
Afterwhich, I thought my valentine to you would be a little demented collage, if you will.

Starting from the upper left corner you see a light fixture from the Dentist to which I recently visited. As with Love, the Dentist scares the day lights out of me. Then moving over to the right, you see parts of the word Safety. Well when I see the words Safety, the song Safety Dance goes into my head by Men Without Hats. But I digress, this image I took on the airplane going on one of my work trips this last year. Yes instead of listening to the Flight Attendant, I took goofy pictures. Then on the lower left hand side is a picture of me. :) LOL, yes this is me in a store holding a heart shaped candy box that says F@ing Love You. I thought this was hilarious. No I didn't buy it, but I took a picture and have had alot of fun with it. Uh - O - the retail Gods will be after me. O well, my credit cards are already burning so, meh. Then last but not least you see Mr. Max Factor himself experimenting with a nice young lady here with some weird crazy head contraption. I am not sure what it is. Even though I saw a huge image of this at the Musem in LA recently. Yes, that's me, I like to look but not read. Yes I am one of those.

So anywho, have a SAFE V-Day folks!

This is Your Life

I just deleted a blog I wrote earlier this evening after feeling like the scum of the earth, lonely, helpless, not knowing what to do. Who wants to listen to that whiny shit? I don't. Then I remembered, it's time to watch fight club again. Remember.... This is your life.

I keep having to remind myself, the only way things will change is if I change them. The only opportunity I have is if I seize them. I need to stop making excuses and making these stricked guidelines for myself.

Carpe diem
'seize the day'

"You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world. " -Tyler Durden

Excellent!!!! I'm crap of the world (jumping up and down clapping). Thank you Tyler Durden. I'd like to thank my Mom and Dad for raising me......." Wow - I feel much better now! Why do I feel like painting and making soap now. Oooo Ikea! I need another shelf!

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Clockwork in Wonderland

Growing up as an outcast and a strange girl with dreams that I was told that life is but a dream, I became a huge Alice in Wonderland. I appreciated her imagination, her curious and curiouser personality. Opening pandora's box and not knowing how to handle the repercussions.

I was Malice Alice from the PC game Alice years ago when no one really knew what it was. I have it again on my PC playing it before the new one comes out, which I can't wait.

Last year for my birthday a good friend of mine took me to a show called Wonderland which was a cool spill on the Alice story. When the new Alice and Wonderland came out with Johnny Depp I was very concerned about the angle that they would take on the story and would it turn my stomach.

This year for my birthday I got tickets for my two teenage boys and myself to celebrate and got to the Clockwork in Wonderland show at the curtain club in Dallas. It was amazing!!!! The performers, circus acts, burlesque, belly dancing trees, vendors and attendees were all in Steampunk flare and ready to see Alice and the Mad Hatter. I was so excited.

When I drove up to the club there was a line down the side of the building of so many people dressed for this particular occasion. A very merry unbirthday to us indeed. As you enter the club was transformed in the Wonderland with the walls, curtains, table settings, cards... It was all so bizarre and just what I needed.

one of the girls from the Lollibombs burlesque show entranced us with her fire breathing skills. Man I could so do that, not. But with some help... maybe? There was even mini carni acts, singing, dancing. It was all so much creativity it just was food to my soul. Anyway, it was a great weekend and I do hope they come back again next year. I am so in <3 with everyone there.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Monday, January 10, 2011

Once Upon a time?!?!?

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall Humpty Dumpty had a great fall And all the king horse and all the kings men, put him back together again?

What - are you for real? How many times did this happen. I would be like - umm nope, sorry - I put you together last time, not doing it again. I guess your just a scrambled egg. And it would be ... And all the kings horses and all the kings men trampled Humpty Dumpty again. LOL Ok so once upon a time, would be transcribed today as phrased in American pie, ” there was this one time, at band camp…” Or there was this one fraction of a second when….

In storybooks they always try to start gloomy and end up happy. Ok but it appears to be over a lifespan to build up to that one moment the whole story is about. And then they lived happily ever after. Really???? Well, there was never a second, third or fourth follow up to Cinderella. Did she and the Prince have kids. Were their kids in sports or extracurricular activities? What about drinking or drug issues or even additions to sex? None of this items are ever covered. I mean, think about it. In those times kings had mistresses. And these mistresses were most likely married and the husbands would be furious. Do you really think Cinderella lived happily ever after?

So I find that there is some damage control needed to be done here. The fairies flew down and made the other experts disintegrate into nothingness so we would never know the true ending to keep us in the mind frame of, yes everything is happy and ended rightfully so with perfection. Sure it will if you married a sugar daddy and you had a fairy god mother, or in this time a Drag Queen to make everything perfect.

Story telling is just that. We feed this to our kids and they believe. Just like old fashioned Santa Claus. My teenagers think Santa was an evil trick that I and their father played on them growing up. They were so disappointed to find out the truth. I literally cried all day when my oldest found out. It was the end of stories and he was welcome into the harsh world of “you can’t always get what you want.” That year was so sad at Christmas. After years have gone by we talk about that from time to time and my boys do not want to raise their children beleiveing in Santa Clause, the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy. But time will tell.

Now, don’t get me wrong I love, Love , LOVE a great story. I just wish when I was younger I wasn’t so nieve and knew the only way to be happy is to be happy with who you are and what you can achieve. Build goals and help us build our own self esteem versus thinking our prince charming will make everything alright. Honestly, I think Prince Charming may look nice but inside he is probably just as fake. Anyway, I digrese…. Along with stories of love and honesty we have magazines, Barbie dolls, rock singers ect. That young girls have to look up to.

Let’s be honest. With these stories and the happily ever after, it’s a set up for failure. However, it’s also a key into the gateway of imagination.

So I sound like I am against it. Well, no I am not. I love stories. I just wish my parents had been a little more open and honest with things. But then again, if they might have, I might not have rebelled so much and not be the gothic loving soul I am but instead a pink Barbie wanting everything just perfect. Brrr… that just gave me the chills. I am me with all my oddities. I am a kid at heart. And probably why I side with the Disney Villians. I always thought even when I was little that the whole story wasn’t told. I mean come on now. Why did Malifacint act the way she did. We don’t know, because the fairies burned all the evidence. Muahahahaha……….

I guess I am not alone with comic books like Fairy Tales and then movies like Shrek that come out. Those crack me up. And well, Disney just made their last Princess movie because they aren’t doing as well as they used to. Helloooo… That’s because no one can relate to that perfect mindset anymore.

And this is why Princess Bride was one of my favorites, Ellen Enchanted, ect… Im odd. What can I say. Tra La La….

Hey you, You remind me of the babe. The babe with the power, what power.

The power of Voodoo who do you do

Remind me of the babe.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Fairy Kisses, Eskimo Kisses... No Jedi Kisses and Unicorn Kisses

Several years ago my boys were much more younger and I would tell them stories I would make up about orcs, fairies and evil lords. In my fairy tale fashion I would always give them fairy kisses and eskimo kisses as I was telling them goodnight and don't let the bed bugs bite because that was my job. LOL.... I made up all sorts of stories and they listen intently. Now my boys are 16 and the youngest is about to turn 14. They have grown tierd of these childish stories of mine. But, I still love them and still imagine other worlds. Even though I could not tuck them in a few years ago because they were point blank, growning up, I developed a new kiss. It was the unicorn kiss. One night I showed it to them as I was tucking them in. I was sweet and gave them a kiss on the cheek and asked to give a fairy kiss, then the eskimo kiss. Then I asked if I ever gave them a unicorn kiss. They had nooo idea what I was talking about. Ofcourse they weren't, I had just made it up in my head. So I told them to close their eyes and I would show them. So how does this unicorn kiss work you might ask. It's simple. You take your index finger and in the middle of the person of your choice, you poke them in the forehead. That is what a unicorn kiss is. :) This evening I was doodling and started making images of a fairy kiss and an eskimo kiss and when i did the eskimo kiss I made a new version of that as well. It is now called..... The Jedi Kiss! Yes!!!!!